coffee and keeks

Valentine's Day still has me thinking about all the things I love about my life. It is the cheesiest day of the year, and this is the cheesiest thing I have ever written, but things like these are what make me happy.  I love hiking to watch the sunrise from the top of a mountain. I love my family. No words can ever explain !!! I love anyone who can make me laugh until tears come out of my eyeballs. Especially in times I need it most. I love weddings and pregnant ladies !!!! This is a weird one but the act of bonding two people for life is so incredible and scary and magical and I love when two people are 100% certain they want to be together forever. As for pregnant ladies, the act of bringing new life to this earth is again, incredible and scary and magical. Pregnant ladies are so beautiful and strong in every way. I love concerts, especially when the lights dim just before they are about to begin oh my goodness the hype is so intense.  I love peo...

I have no idea what I want to do with my life.  I thought I had it pretty much figured out, but turns out I don't :))). Plans change, interests change, people change. I had a set idea but now I'm not certain and it drives me insane !!!!! I am terrified of the future and the unknown. I wish I could know what college I'm going to, what I'm going to do later in life, if everything is going to turn out okay... but I don't know. I can't know. There is no way of me knowing yet. The future holds endless possibilities and that is a scary thought. You can be walking on sunshine one minute and fall flat on your butt the next. It stresses me out !! (again with not living in the moment ... ) It brings me anxiety and nervousness. I want to be successful. I want to live a long life. I want to make people proud. I want to change someone else's life. There is no guarantee that any of this will happen. I try to trust that everything is in God's hands, but its h...