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inside a doubting mind

I have no idea what I want to do with my life. 

I thought I had it pretty much figured out, but turns out I don't :))). Plans change, interests change, people change. I had a set idea but now I'm not certain and it drives me insane !!!!!

I am terrified of the future and the unknown. I wish I could know what college I'm going to, what I'm going to do later in life, if everything is going to turn out okay... but I don't know. I can't know. There is no way of me knowing yet.

The future holds endless possibilities and that is a scary thought. You can be walking on sunshine one minute and fall flat on your butt the next. It stresses me out !! (again with not living in the moment ... ) It brings me anxiety and nervousness.

I want to be successful. I want to live a long life. I want to make people proud. I want to change someone else's life. There is no guarantee that any of this will happen.

I try to trust that everything is in God's hands, but its hard when you're impatient, doubtful, and constantly overthinking absolutely everything. I truly do believe that God always knows what he is doing, but even this fact doesn't keep me from worrying. 

What I need to do is simply accept that there is no way of knowing what comes next. I need to learn to be okay with that. There is nothing I can do to help or prevent the future, so focusing more on the present and what is happening at this very moment is essential. God only knows and time only tells. 

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  1. It's true, you never know what is going to happen. But the best thing is that you can trust in God. It's hard, but doable. I also think there are things you can do to prepare for the future. It's small steps that help you get there as well. So basically, you can enjoy the present while making the future more certain all the time!

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