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"trust me"

What I should be doing: studying for an English quiz on  Shakespeare's "Taming of the Shrew"
What I actually am doing: thinking 'bout life and writing this lol.

 Putting faith in other people is hard for me. Maybe its because I've been let down so many times, or maybe its just because I'm not close with many people. I would much rather keep my secrets or do something for myself rather than rely on someone else.

 "Trust me" are two words I often hear together and on a regular basis. They are dreaded. They cause me to overthink at night and worry too much. 

 I trust God through any situation whether it be good or bad. I find myself to have such strong faith in Him because I know that in the end he will never let me down. Everything he does and brings into my life is for a specific reason. He knows how my life will turn out and I simply need to put my faith in Him and that He will lead me down the right path. 

 Best friends since fifth grade, Nadiya is like a locked box. Once you tell her a secret, it won't come out. She always keeps her word and pulls through with commitments. I can trust her for anything and everything.

 I can trust these two people so easily, but not others. To me, breaking trust is the worst of the worst. But I am endlessly grateful to our greater power and my best friend for giving me the best senses of hope and reliance.

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