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my life feels lopsided

Today was just another day. Same old, same old. Everything is caught up in the same routine.

 I have gotten used to my surroundings and the life around me. The people, places, and things I do don't change.

 I feel nothing, but also everything at the same time. My mind feels bland. It also feels overflowing with emotion. Its something I can't describe. One minute I care, the next I don't.

 I need a long hug. Or a long bath. Or a long nap. Something. I need something to snap me out of this and bring me back to reality. The reality that is filled with adventure and surprises and friends and randomness.

 I understand that with this reality can also come failure and sadness and heartbreak, but that is the balance. There is beauty in that balance. I currently don't feel that balance. I'm not sure why. My life is leaning more towards the negative side. I do not enjoy it.

 Maybe something good is coming. I hope so. Many moments of pure content. Because I don't feel any of those moments now. But I am keeping in mind that you need to know the bad to recognize the good. So to the good moments coming: please come quick. 

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